| My heart will always belong to Ireland
By Joe Horgan
I’VE always loved Ireland. I remember as a kid just how much eager
anticipation I felt as we waited for the coach outside the Irish Centre.
The school holidays would have just begun and we would be heading to Ireland
for the summer.
We’d sit on our suitcases on an English street and wait for the
journey to begin. In a way though it had already begun because we would
have said goodbye to our house and wandered off down the street, wandered
off into the strange dislocation of going to the other country the one
our parents called home.
One of the most defining aspects of going to Ireland then was the contrast
between our big city lives and the rural country we found our parents’
land to be.
My mother was actually from the city but the edge of the city where
they lived what would now be the suburbs was merely the country nearer
in.
My auntie, who I often stayed with, would now live in what is virtually
the inner city but back then I could still see fields from her street
and when we played on the GAA pitch round the corner we’d sometimes
stop and listen to the sound of the farm animals entering the nearby slaughterhouse.
There is a place where we used to walk that I try to trace now whenever
I go up to the city.
It is difficult to see it now as dual carriageways and flyovers and roundabouts
block the way and there are estates of houses and a long manicured golf
course where I think the land might have been.
We used to set off for there and once past a few houses we soon hit fields.
The corporation dump was there then, as now, though nowhere near the same
size and I remember the flocks of seagulls and crows that used to swirl
endlessly around it.
We would walk past there and there was usually a line of Travellers’
caravans and dogs running loose and clothes drying in the sun.
Just beyond there was the boarded-up shell of some kind of substantial
old house. I remember all this now from the eyes of childhood but I can
see it still so clearly.
After crossing a few paths and maybe we were trespassing I don’t
know but I think things were a bit more relaxed back then with regards
to such things we came to the wooded land and the black pools.
For a child especially a child growing up in a big city in a different
country this bit of old Irish wilderness was like something from a fairytale.
The water in the numerous large ponds and pools was as black as could
be.
Alongside one of them was some kind of small shed or lean to. My cousins
swore a hermit lived there a wild man who swam naked in the black pools.
We never saw him but he was all the more mysterious for that.
It being Ireland the weather could change in an instant and we would find
ourselves running for shelter from a once sunny day as the black water
came alive with ripples.
Like a lot of childhood I can’t really remember what we did there
for all those endless days but back then it would be dark before we ever
got home.
At other times we would all stay much further out in the country and the
sea and the fields and the rocks were our wandering grounds.
We even used to, I kid you not, play around a deserted castle climbing
in and out of its tunnels and rooms, up broken stairways to higher floors
somehow even getting on the roof. Kings of all we surveyed.
That old building has now been renovated and is out of bounds. No Trespassing
signs litter it and the surrounding grounds and an old coach house is
renovated too. Many surrounding paths used by everyone around the place
have been blocked off by the new owners so that the amount of common ground
gets less and less and childhood now might not be so free or so expansive
whether in Ireland or anywhere else.
Of course remembering like this is an act of nostalgia. How could recalling
your childhood be any other way?
And how lucky we inner city kids from England were that our immigrant
parents were Irish and took us with them when they made their annual trip
home and showed us the place they loved and the place they sang about
and talked about and drank about and dreamed about.
So I always remember and I’m always grateful.
And I always love Ireland.
We’d sit on our suitcases on an English street and wait for the
journey to begin. In a way though it had already begun because we would
have said goodbye to our house and wandered off down the street, wandered
off into the strange dislocation of going to the other country —
the one our parents called home.
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